Wednesday, October 19, 2016

My Oldest

Playing with paper again always feels like opening a window in my soul that was currently shut. I have been painting more as of late and wanted to try it out on a page. Starting with a large painted circle I chose to stitch my title around it and work out from there!!

I had fun fussy cutting and stitching away for this page. There is something greatly therapeutic in handstitching for me!

 I snapped this sweet photo of my oldest beauty last winter at a family visit to Niagra Falls, which is stunning in the winter, by the way! I loved how bright and beautiful she looked against the stark white and icy backdrop.
                             Thanks for peeking in and happy humpday my scrappy friends!!!

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

well lookey there, I still know how to play with paper!!!( life update)

Sometimes life is not what you expect. It beautiful and blessed, its enriching and powerful, and often it is at rest and mundane, but occasionally life throws at you something you don't expect, something that despite the trials you have faced before, you do not know how to work through. This something for me came in the wake of my pregnancy and continued to grow after Brynnlee's birth in the form of what we know as post partum depression and anxiety.  Being the 4th pregnancy for us and never  before having post partum issues, it hit me in a, knock the wind out of you sort of way. It began as anxiety in my first trimester, always afraid something bad was going to happen, despite a lack of extreme complications within my proceeding pregnancies. This grew into worry in the middle trimester when I began bleeding without reasoning and finally it peeked in the last few weeks as I was told that I had GBS which can cause complications in birth if passed to baby in the form of meningitis. After birth I became paranoid that each sound or mannerism was a result of the GBS. I kept thinking things were wrong with my beautiful, perfect angel, leaving me little else emotionally to enjoy and bond with her.

I was mentally and physically exhausted, and to add to this, my husband is currently in a place with his job that is resulting in him working 6 days a week, most days 7 am- 8:30 pm, leaving me on the homefront alone. Add to this living in a place with brutal winters and yet to make local friends, I slipped easily from anxiety to depression. This depression came not in the form of sadness and crying as often portrayed, but in a state of overwhelmed, unenthused and mopey type of fog. Like most, I kept trying to think it would pass, once the winter was over I could once again go outside. Once the summer came I could go visit family. But the feelings did not pass on its own, and the time did not heal. I chose to seek help. I forced myself to go outside and try harder to make friendships grow.

Currently, Brynnlee is a beautiful, smart, healthy, and at times destructive 10 month old. She is the perfect blessing to our family, and while I am still taking it day by day, somedays are better than others, giving me not only the energy and mind frame for hobbies I love, but the time as well, which comes in the form of that sacred "naptime"!
Today was a great day for playing with paper. Getting back into the online community of scrapbooking after nearly a year can be overwhelming, so I went to the one place I knew I could depend on; paper issues. I found their October take 5 challenge and accepted in the form of mixed media, 2 or more fonts, a pumpkin, layers, and kraft cardstock. Along with this, I was also so excited to find an old sketchy site, creative scrappers , up and running once again, and inspiring this page with their current sketch #299.
The sunlight was harsh, and the sharpness was shakey, but I was too excited not to share, despite the not up to par photo. So here's to deep truths and getting my hands dirty again! How I've needed them both.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Four month old baby!

This little bundle is over 4 months old now. She is keeping mommy super busy, and therefore scrapbooking and crafting is a distant memory (for now)
Big L and Big A started indoor soccer this year. We love the family time during practices and games.
I have been playing more with paints lately....but truly missing playing with paper! I hope yall are doing wonderful and thanks for stopping in to peek at my little cutie!

Friday, February 12, 2016

Little B is two months old!!


Friday, January 22, 2016

Friday Photo

"An ordinary moment can be quite magical"....

The older girls leave for school at 8 am, and the mornings before little K goes to school at noon have been slow the past few weeks. This is a time of rest for mommy, baby, and often little K. My house is always a bit messy these days, and truly I am too tired to care in the mornings. This, for now, is our new normal! I embrace every bit of it, as while this phase is rough, it wont last for ever and in a few short years I will yearn for the sweet mornings with my little girls again. Right here, right now, is the magicalness of the ordinary everyday.

Friday, January 15, 2016

Friday Photo

It takes a village to raise a child!
The sweetness in little moments like this, when little L sneaks a moment to comfort baby sister with a book is just too strong!! I hope their bond stays this strong for years to come!

Friday, January 8, 2016

Friday Photo

From the first breath she breathed, when she first smiled at me, I knew the love of a father runs deep.     Someday you might know what I'm going through, when a miracle smiles up at you.
                                                                      I loved her first!
There is nothing more beautiful than the look on his face for his newborn baby girls. The love that our family feels for baby Brynnlee, the final piece to our family will forever melt my heart!